2007-12-15, 10:02 p.m.
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Whee! I am posting from the free wireless internet at the place we're staying at in Grass Valley tonight. Will post more on that later...just trying to get a pre-written post up tonight while things are quiet.
Prompt from awhile back: "What are a few songs that would provide the soundtrack to your life and why?"
Well, coincidentally, I have an entire playlist in iTunes of these...
First, I'll just list (but not talk about) the songs where uh, it's pretty self-explanatory why I might relate to it:
Songs that require slightly more explanation:
Okay, here's the top three, with some lyric quoting!
* Oblivion. I love Shannon Campbell (see above), I am sad she doesn't perform any more (though I am glad her entire body of work is online again).
"but I can't shake free
but all my heroes are dead and gone
Amen to all of that. Uh, yes, that's why I'm in therapy. I have been listening to this song a LOT lately.
* The Tower. The Tower card in tarot is a big motif with me, and from the ages of 18-29, I didn't seem to go very long in life without having some kind of big unexpected event or drama eruption going on around me all the @#$@#$ time. Ever since The Big Death went down, my drama magnetism seems to have gone down, though. I have friends having marital drama, and there's the crap with Ron and Laurie, and now Uncle Bruce, but considering that I can actually go a few weeks at a time without drama erupting, and most of it isn't MY specific problem... well, yay for calmer life there.
Not that this song is exactly about being a drama magnet, but I figured I should explain that one.
"I need not to need
Yeah. That's the dilemma for me, in a nutshell. One option or the other, all or nothing.
If I could get rid of the inner needy, I'd be a happy girl. I stay in the tower now to make sure I'm not acting that way.
My top theme song, however, is Jenny Says. It's just funny how fitting these random lyrics are to me considering that I don't know the people in this band.
"The ties that bind are tearing me apart
You beat yourself up to bring yourself down
I've got no reason for the things I say
You beat yourself up 'cause you love it"
And oh, yes, I do love it.