Recap Day: October 2017
2017-12-24, 10:45 a.m.
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October is really long, I gotta break this up:
I was super busy on the first weekend of October--I swear all the festivals were happening that weekend.
Alohafest was on Saturday and was as lovely as ever. I had the world’s most delicious shaved ice once again (I really wish that truck would go anywhere else I go) and some really delicious chiccarrones (spelling?) and lumpia at the Filipino food truck. I mostly hung out at the crafting table and learned how to make a fabric lei where they have you basically ripping out 2/3 of the ribbon and then threading the rest of it and scrunching it down, and one of those spikey hair doodads they wear in performances. I also saw a hula show done to the music of Moana, which was fabulous.
Lambtown (fiber arts fest) was on Sunday and I mostly spent it running around trying to get more roving (raw stuff you make yarn from) that looks like a blue morpho butterfly, and chatting with my favorite vendor.
All weekend long (at night) was the Sacramento Comedy Festival, which is a mix of improv and standup and sketch, bringing out-of-towners as well as locals. I enjoyed all the shows, but I was definitely feeling mopey at the comedy festival. Here’s why:
(a) Meeting someone who had just started taking improv classes and was so! excited! Oh, those days...
Honestly, I feel like I"m whining that I never got in with the "cool kids" in high school. Same feeling ;P No wonder I haven't wanted to hang around too much lately.
I don't know if I have just talked myself out of this whole thing or am genuinely facing reality in that I am not good enough and need to move on (at least for now), and/or should just focus on knitting or something else more fitting to my skills.
I guess I just don't feel like I will ever get there. I'm nearly forty years old, for fuck's sake. I can't keep waiting and being slow and taking my time and shit like that and taking 5-10-20 more years to not suck. I wish I'd done this earlier except I got the hell intimidated out of the college drama program and if I couldn't even make it in in high school, maybe that was all for the best...