Life Coaching With Tarot
2020-11-28, 6:35 p.m.
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The morning: slept till 9ish, got out of bed around 10ish, walked around the house for 90 minutes. Then took an online class on "Tarot: The Hero's Journey," which had Technical Difficulties for most of the first half hour, and then once that finally got squared away I was all "oh, that's the guy I took Lenormand from awhile back!" Anyway, nice (shorter, thank god) run-through of the cards and meanings. I know that stuff by now, but I felt like listening, so what the heck.
Then the next one was "Life Coaching with Tarot." In retrospect I wasn't sure what the hell I signed up for, if it was going to turn out to be some kind of "here's how to start your own tarot business" (no thanks, business is hard). But no, it was a therapist who also uses tarot doing free readings for people and it was lovely. "We'll figure out what the problem is and I'll design a tarot spread just for you." Sweet! Her name is Natalie Burtenshaw, for the record.
So yes, I asked a Scott question....namely, how do I deal with initiating vs. not wanting to be Too Much or whatever for him.
Your role in initiating: King of Cups. the part of ourselves connected with emotions/the heart. united head and heart. Wounded healer. Even though he may be hurting, the KoC still reaches out to help other people too. Court card represents person--either masculine part of you or him. (I said could be either of us, really, but "wounded healer" matches more with my astrology.) How might you be called to be the initiator? "You're playing the helper role," checking in, sending him things. you're the person who's holding the relationship up with heart, high integrity.
What's getting to you is unspoken indecision--is it going somewhere or not? Continuing to flow with the current, see what happens, vs. I don't want to waste a whole lot of time. I want it to be what it's going to be sooner or later. Our brains hate undecided decisions-- go one way or the other. Could be healthy to rein in this devil energy, wait it out, keep going with flow, resist the urge to shake things up, Or things really do need to be shaken up? The Devil is the part that wants to control the situation. Maybe this needs shaking up/trickster energy, or maybe it's a case of letting things go, waiting for them to go back to normal.
She said that the King of Cups is the energy of being kind and present, vs. the Devil saying "I gotta manipulate the situation." King of Cups is "how can I make his day today? How can I add a little bit of positivity to this relationship?" The inbalanced energy comes from the Devil: should I go forward or back, instability, see if you can go forward.
She brought up the Devil saying I'm too much, stay quiet, control your emotions, you will ruin things--damn right. She suggested talking about things, connecting...but good god, I don't think the relationship is there yet and definitely isn't going to be during a pandemic, wah. I just don't want to dump all over him or have obvious expectations or...whatever. If he's not ready, he's not ready. If he's got nothing, he's got nothing. I just...want to make sure the option exists if there's a future so we don't drift apart, and I want to make him feel as good as I can, which isn't much. Sigh.
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Per my mom buying me some kind of Hallmark Channel subscription, I watched "Good Morning Christmas!"
"Bright and Merry" are two TV hosts who are kinda feuding. I think this was based off Kelly Ripa and Michael Strahan, actually: blonde cohost getting annoyed when her football star cohost wants off the show and doesn't tell her. Anyway, they get forced to do Christmas shows for a week in "Mistletoe" and then announce on Christmas Eve that the show is ending--on prime time. Really? Who the hell would make that as a business decision? That would piss people off, actually. Basically: Melissa wants to control everything and rehearse and Brian wants to wing it and be spontaneous. "It's just more fun when it's planned. And prepared."
"This is the ugliest thing I've ever seen in my life." "That's the whole point." -on ugly sweater wearing. "My least favorite suggestion is THIS THING!" Brian says later.
Anyway, this involves them teaming up for things, him learning to rehearse a bit and her learning how to wing it. Brian learns to love Hawaiian Christmas shirts. Both of them hang out and craft and have a good time, except for the times when Brian's girlfriend comes in, isn't into Christmas, and wants to start a show with him and her. The girlfriend seems nice, and actually takes figuring out that Brian isn't into them having a show where they shack up and get engaged very well. Go figure.
I get the feeling that this whole plot has just been a matchmaking scheme by Jennifer to get them together romantically by supposedly letting Brian out of his contract even though it's a hit show? Now it's all "secretly film them and turn their mikes on."
Actual conversation in the show: "How did you know Jenny was the one?" "Because she has been driving me crazy since the day I met her." "Good enough."
"Always listen to your gut while producing." Jennifer's gut says to go live ahead of time, even though she's not supposed to.
Him: "Can I go first? I rehearsed." Her: "Where's the teleprompter where you need one?" Her sister jumps up and yells watching the TV.
"You're not crafty and you don't even know all the words to Jingle Bells!" "I couldn't find another cohost because none of them was you." Awwwwwwwwww. I do think this movie is very cute. This is the most fun I've ever seen Marc Blucas have on film in my life. They also made the same wish--for their show to continue.
After that, I watched musicals online. "An American In Paris" was on "The Shows Must Go On" this weekend and I was all, I haven't seen it, so what the hell. In all honesty, I found it pretty boring and didn't even end up finishing it. Not a lot of plot in this.
The entire plot of it seems to boil down to "three friends are all in love with the same girl." The girl, Lise, may be a good dancer (this is quite the dance show), but frankly, I just don't find her very interesting. Boring brown bob, boring clothes, shy and introverted, and apparently her appeal is 'she makes you want to take care of her." Frankly, I'm bored by her and I don't get why everyone's dick is hard over her. Jerry, the title American, is also kind of irritating and brash and insistent, and decides to rename her "Liza" because he thinks Lise sounds sad (frankly, I think he just can't say it). Lise is pretty openly not into the renaming, either, but then changes her mind.
Henri is the one who proposes to Lise, though his mom seems to think he's gay (must be that bow tie he keeps insisting on) and even Henri himself thinks she's not that into him. I dunno on his French accent either? And when he brings up the possibility of being gay around his friends, they all kinda look away awkwardly and then one of them goes, well, it wouldn't change my opinion of you, you're still asinine....
I think Milo is a much more interesting lady, though she also renames Jerry a few times (he don't like it either!). Ditto Henri's mother.
Dear Lise: you just got engaged to someone else, you cannot get into a snit over the guy you didn't get engaged to dancing with another woman.
"Are you one of those rare gents who likes to shop?" Hah, Henri.
DMTC has another musical online (without the licensing being yanked this time!), The Sound of Music. I will note that the Maria casting is excellent in particular but the Captain is well.... much older and stout. I don't buy them romantically even besides the issues of Zoom plays.
This one is a mix of OBS and talking heads. The talking heads came off pretty well, the OBS... well...
* All these nuns are just....floating in and around the screen and positioned about stacked on top of each other.
Anyway...it was an interesting watch, I'll say that. I think I agree with SF Shakes's or Folsom Lake's versions best though: not all the way viewing of the feet, having precise marks to hit, and not a lot of moving around.