Angsting About Contact + Jane Eyre
2020-04-09, 5:22 p.m.
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I had a minimum of meetings today (one!) and the phone call with Tigress got cut off when she got another call, so that was nice. Pretty quiet. However, I have been told I have to have a two hour meeting tomorrow schooling me on how to respond to emails, because I can't do that right either. Shoot me now.
That's all I feel about saying about work. Did manage to take two 15 minute breaks to walk around the house, so there's that, and then an hour afterwards.
Also, webcams are sold out, so hah! Hopefully this means I can’t get one from work!
So Arne and Carlos updated today....yes, Carlos got coronavirus* and has been officially diagnosed with such. Oddly, Arne, the one who had a bit of a cough during official quarantine, tested negative. GO FIGURE. I don't understand how that happens when you are together all the time. I'm wondering when the heck he came down with it because they went through quarantine and seemed to be fine and "supposedly" after 14 days you're supposed to be able to go out of complete shut-in-ness. Like every other thing with this disease, it's worse than anyone guessed it would operate, I suppose.
* Honestly, I prefer saying "coronavirus" to COVID or COVID-19 or SARS-whatever or whatever. Purely because it sounds prettier, even though why I want to make a horrible disease "prettier" is beyond me.
I did finish their knitalong, at least! Now I guess we wait until he feels better to find out how to finish the pillow.
It horrifies me to read articles about how people went to a birthday party (Washington Post link) on March 6 and then 80% of the attendees got coronavirus and 2 died, crap like that. It makes me think I must have been very, very lucky to not run into anyone with it when I was still running around having fun on March 10.
I finished reading "Daisy Jones and the Six," which turned out to be better than I thought it would be. The overall concept of the book is not necessarily my favorite, but I got into the female characters, at least. And I got the review written, so good for me there.
While online today, I read someone’s comment saying that she finally met someone on Tinder that she’s really into and he lives close by and they can’t hang out in person and it feels like a cruel joke to meet him NOW. I posted something sulky and sad and waaaaah in response myself, along with some commentary along the lines of “this is exactly the sort of thing I keep thinking seems like a bad idea with everyone who is trying to date now.” Then someone else was all, “it’s pretty unrealistic that people aren’t going to look for love connections,” and I was all, well, I’ve gone sixteen years without....AND COUNTING, GOING FOR TWENTY NOW, AIN’T I...etc.
And while I was writing my wanky response to that, someone posted that she finally got offered a kidney transplant and...given the circumstances, had to turn it down even though they said it would probably be at least two years before she matched with someone else, if ever. I felt like a shallow asshole after seeing that one, lemme tell ya. And said so.
The lady who needs a transplant graciously said our situations are similar in that we both want something for years and years and can’t have it, and then offered Internet hugs, and then I started crying AGAIN.
Later, I saw another one about someone who started dating an ER doctor a week before this...he keeps in touch, says their conversations are a bright spot, she’s trying to be cautious but it seems stupid not to hope a little...Oh god, this one.
On a related note, tonight’s Pick A Card reading on “How would they react if you contacted them?” (I picked the monkey, makes sense in video context) said that he’d be cold and distant and guarded and he’s in his own head in the moment and stuck in the past. “I’m not seeing that they would reject you, but they wouldn’t start running towards you.” They want to connect with you--have feelings and want to--but have anxiety over relationships in general. They won’t let you in right away and would need time to think things through.
NO POINT IN THAT IDEA, IS THERE.
Tonight I am watching Jane Eyre.
* It's...very artsy, boring wood frame set.
Anyway....it's a weird show, but I do concur they got Jane and Rochester as a couple right, at the very least. I just wish it had less overdone artsy crap taking me out of Jane's story so much.