I'm feeling so stressed out. For some reason yesterday, Hill seemed to REALLY want attention. I don't know why that day in particular, but she kept wanting to do stuff with me. Make cookies, do beading, play cards, watch Princess Diaries... Now don't get me wrong, I wanted to do that stuff (even though I really do have other things that need to get done soon). But she took awhile to get around to doing this stuff, and as the clock keeps ticking on, I kept thinking "Dave's gonna call like the second this movie gets started, and then I won't be able to actually SEE it." Then I felt like an idiot who lets her life revolve around boys in exclusion to her girlfriends- "Oh, I can't do that, Bobby's going to call me tonight, tee hee!" Gag me. I wanted to talk to him, sure, but it's not like I can really ask him to call me later around 10 or so when the movie's over when he has to get up early too. And I didn't necessarily want to say to Hill "No, I can't watch the movie tonight because Dave's going to call."

I am a good multitasker, but one thing I CANNOT do is listen to two things or people at the same time. I cannot watch a movie and hear the dialogue AND listen to someone talking to me in the other ear and focus on them both. And since the person on the phone tends to get pissed if I ignore them to watch the movie, I have to give up on the flick. You'd BETTER not try to tell me anything- especially anything important- while I'm on the phone, because I just cannot focus on you and the phone too. I can't just make one ear go one way and one ear go the other, you know? Honestly, sometimes I just wish Dave's phone minutes started at 9 p.m. instead of 8. I've taped Angel and Buffy this week and I know damn well I won't be able to see them any time in the next two weeks, I was going to borrow The Osbournes tape from my coworker, but now plan on letting my fellow clerk see it first because god only knows when I'll get to it. I just can't watch anything long any more. I've only got three hours or so a day before phone minutes start, and I have other things to do besides sit on my butt watching tapes in the living room.

I totally felt like a pushmepullyu between the two. It was driving me nuts.

So he doesn't call till about 8:20 or so, by which point I'm watching the movie and playing cards with Hill. I'm trying to hear both and pay attention to what cards to play and Hill keeps griping at me for going when "It's still my turn!" I start griping that "I can't pay attention to when you're done AND watch the movie AND talk here!" Dave's all "Calm down, dear. Breathe..." Gah. Eventually Dave needed me to look up something online for him, so I gave up on the movie. I think Hill was rather pissed at me for doing so, but hell, I was missing dialogue left and right between everything. Gahhhhh.

I have got so much crap I have to do in the next two days. Laundry (I'm almost out of unmentionables, or will be by Friday), go buy a train ticket, finish updating my resume (god, I hate think thinking of an "objective" and cover letters) TONIGHT because one job my fellow clerk is encouraging me to get is due tomorrow, and now I just had another added to the list:

"It was Jeremy's birthday Friday."

"I know. He told us in the car."

"Yeah, but we missed it. We have to get him something."

(I'm wondering "You've been best friends with him for five years and you don't know when his birthday is?" Boys. Though I wouldn't have expected it from one who has written down on my computer calendar the day we met, the day we got handfasted, etc. Then again, he keeps getting when we met wrong, so...)

"Uh... like what?"

"Make him a necklace."

"Okay then... what kinds of stuff does he like?" I'm trying to think of what kind of pendant to get. From what I've seen in Jeremy's bedroom, he likes clothes, pictures, and porn (the rest is filled with Nikki's stuff). I'm not getting him any of that, thankyouverymuch.

"I don't know!"

(Again: five years and you don't know?)

"Well, I'm not very good at picking people's presents anyway, and I'm REALLY not very good at it when I have no idea at all what to get..."

"He likes stuff that we like!"

Sigh. Another thing to add to the list: Go to bead store and fumble around for something, then make necklace. Yet another errand that must be done in the next two days. I'm thinking about trying to do that over lunch and skip eating, but my stomach will most likely start screaming "HUNGRY!" again at me if I do so. Crap. Unfortunately, some UPS guy came by yesterday THUNK THUNK THUNKING on our door, and upon peephole inspection Hill thought he was a salesperson, so we didn't answer it. We found a note on the floor later saying he had a package that HAD to be signed for by someone over 21 (the hell?). Crap, could that be any more of a pain? And he said he was coming back today (Wed), but never said when. Hill's all "Has to be for you, nobody ever sends me anything. Did you order porn?" (No) Though as far as I know, nobody IS sending me anything- the last thing I ordered came in already, and I already got my birthday package in the mail. So now I have to drag my ass home right after work to sit around and wait for the UPS man for something that might not even be mine. Joy.

Yesterday while bored at work (I swear, if I ever did a drinking game for this journal, you'd have to take a shot for every time I said "Yesterday while bored at work, I..."), I made up this long list of possible wedding dates and why they'd be good/bad to do. (You'll note that I'm sparing you this in the journal until something's actually kinda set. Yes, I did the WC journal thing to deposit that crap in.) At one point while brainstorming off the top of my head, I put down "Have a Halloween wedding." Given our holiday thing and our wanting to do a weird one and the timing and the fact that Halloween is on a Friday in 2003, it seemed appropriate. However, there'd also be other issues going on, like do I really want to have to wear a Halloween costume to my wedding and have to have bats and cobwebs and shit all over? That stuff's fun for a day, but I dunno about for a wedding. (Though hey, a masquerade ball could be damn cool.) And it'd be kinda hard to have romantic anniversaries when kids are knocking down the door and wanting to trick-or-treat. Gah. I dunno. I figured this one wouldn't be very likely and we'd just have to do it in September or something.

He likes the idea. I'm not sure how I feel about that.

Incidentally, I found a wedding journal online that's Bridget-Jones themed and called "Bride and Lunatic." DAMN, I wish I'd thought of that.

You know what I find annoying at work? "Oh, are you going to the thing upstairs?"

"What thing upstairs?"

"The party we're having for X Person. Are you coming?"

"Well, since I wasn't invited, no, I'm not."

"You mean you didn't get the card that was going around?"

"No..."

This seems to be happening fairly often these days. I don't really know the folks having the parties all that well to stand around for an hour with cake, either.

Update, 7:45 p.m.: Well, laundry is 2/3 of the way done (damn washer kept screwing up with one load, so much for being done before 8), the package turned out to be for someone else who got the address wrong, and I have officially applied for one job! Hurrah! It's to be an advising assistant, and the more I read the job description, the more interesting it gets. And it's kinda similar to the part-time job I like too. I've filled out the resume/form/cover letter for the part-time job too, but haven't sent them in yet because I'm not sure if I know the name of the person it's going to if I should put her name on it or not. All application stuff has to go through a central office first. I'll probably ask my fellow clerk tomorrow.

As for the other two jobs I have on my list, I'm feeling less hot to apply for those. One's basically a receptionist and the other is basically a secretary. I'm kinda like "Eh, I'd rather just apply for the ones I like," right now, but I have time to force myself into applying for the others, I guess. Mainly I know I wouldn't be all that happy constantly answering phones, but I don't have many options.

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